live

Vive a pandemia, vive na pandemia ou sobrevive à pandemia.

October 29, 2020

Life is not a binary implementation of a past vision, of values and hysterical societies. Life is a multiple set of layers, opportunities and experimental at its core, in which individuals positions fundamental decisions about existence and absence.

September 27, 2020

Passei anos à minha procura. Agora ando há anos a descobrir-me. Uma vida destas levará um homem a inscrever-se na sua própria história, demostrando para além de qualquer dúvida que o compromisso com a vida depende do laço íntimo e pessoal com a razão e forma de ser quem sou.

July 16, 2020

Sentir e reescrever>esse carinho que se constrói da empatia natural de ser_só isso-ser#Disforme na latência que incomoda até ao olhar_no desconforto de saber que esse tempo de dois não será a ganhar_na evidência dessa dança bailada que arrasta o peso da distância e do desejo_na solicitude em anexar um novo tempo e em descompasso e tão exigente_! Por isso vejo, inspiro o maior obrigado e continuo a ser vivo, só para aprender a morrer~•×

the MONSTRUKTOR

December 12, 2018

Sentir e reescrever>esse carinho que se constrói da empatia natural de ser_só isso-ser#Disforme na latência que incomoda até ao olhar_no desconforto de saber que esse tempo de dois não será a ganhar_na evidência dessa dança bailada que arrasta o peso da distância e do desejo_na solicitude em anexar um novo tempo e em descompasso e tão exigente_! Por isso vejo, inspiro o maior obrigado e continuo a ser vivo, só para aprender a morrer~•×

the MONSTRUKTOR

December 12, 2018

A verdade é só uma

Aos que afecto – aos que deixo ficar – a essa horda de inadaptados – quais humanos – meio acordados ou já completos – aos que nunca vão perceber – aos que sentem ao de leve o meu toque – aos que fogem da minha inquietude – a todos os que mentem a partir da minha tranquilidade – aos que dependem de mim para existir – aos que existem para mim sem eu perceber nunca porquê – aos que são tudo o que eu nunca esperei – aos que são sãos – aos que me dão sanidade – aos que me exigem respostas – aos que eu ignoro, admiro ou sou pura curiosidade – aos que sobram – aos que nem tocam – aos comentários de sobriedade, seriedade, sem idade – a todos que cuido, a todos – esses que recebem sem ter que pedir – aos que acolho – aos que me deixam ver – aos queridos – aos molhos – aos amados – a ti meu amor – até outros que nunca te vou conseguir evitar – aos que perguntaram sempre – aos que tiveram medo de mim – aos que olharam de frente – aos que fugiam no fim – a elas – às desculpas, medos e receios – aos dias da noite e noites em mim – ao sol – e á estrada – sem anseios, na descoberta – ao acento errado – á estranheza – ao pacto – há vontade infinita, insólita, criadora – há e haverá sempre comigo uma estranha forma de ver, dever que exijo aos outros, de viver a aprender a morrer.

November 26, 2018

A verdade é só uma

Aos que afecto – aos que deixo ficar – a essa horda de inadaptados – quais humanos – meio acordados ou já completos – aos que nunca vão perceber – aos que sentem ao de leve o meu toque – aos que fogem da minha inquietude – a todos os que mentem a partir da minha tranquilidade – aos que dependem de mim para existir – aos que existem para mim sem eu perceber nunca porquê – aos que são tudo o que eu nunca esperei – aos que são sãos – aos que me dão sanidade – aos que me exigem respostas – aos que eu ignoro, admiro ou sou pura curiosidade – aos que sobram – aos que nem tocam – aos comentários de sobriedade, seriedade, sem idade – a todos que cuido, a todos – esses que recebem sem ter que pedir – aos que acolho – aos que me deixam ver – aos queridos – aos molhos – aos amados – a ti meu amor – até outros que nunca te vou conseguir evitar – aos que perguntaram sempre – aos que tiveram medo de mim – aos que olharam de frente – aos que fugiam no fim – a elas – às desculpas, medos e receios – aos dias da noite e noites em mim – ao sol – e á estrada – sem anseios, na descoberta – ao acento errado – á estranheza – ao pacto – há vontade infinita, insólita, criadora – há e haverá sempre comigo uma estranha forma de ver, dever que exijo aos outros, de viver a aprender a morrer.

November 26, 2018

É assim, que de repente, tudo o que é, desaparece. Um instante de nada muda tudo, desde a parte ao todo e parte-me todo. Desmonto do pedestal de humano e continuo só a pé o caminho que me leva a ensinar o que aprendi, a pôr em palavras o que sinto na pele das marcas de homem, que de livre tem somente a marca do ferrolho.

the MONSTRUKTOR

November 23, 2018

É assim, que de repente, tudo o que é, desaparece. Um instante de nada muda tudo, desde a parte ao todo e parte-me todo. Desmonto do pedestal de humano e continuo só a pé o caminho que me leva a ensinar o que aprendi, a pôr em palavras o que sinto na pele das marcas de homem, que de livre tem somente a marca do ferrolho.

the MONSTRUKTOR

November 23, 2018

Thinking about how many times I’ve been through something and came out of it alive. Counting.

the MONSTRUKTOR

August 17, 2018

#photographers #being #photographed #photography #event #music #live #rooftop #sunset #porto #party #people #happy #shit #all #lies #decadence #false #truth #nosalvation #doomed (at Porto, Portugal)

July 17, 2018

@blackbombaim @loverslollypops @ardaaudio #reverbations #room #concrete #sound #jonathansaldanha #live #recording #album #music #Porto #feup #laboratory #acustics (at FEUP)

April 22, 2018

@blackbombaim @loverslollypops @ardaaudio #reverbations #room #concrete #sound #jonathansaldanha #live #recording #album #music #Porto #feup #laboratory #acustics (at FEUP)

April 21, 2018

@blackbombaim @loverslollypops @ardaaudio #reverbations #room #concrete #sound #jonathansaldanha #live #recording #album #music #Porto #feup #laboratory #acustics (at FEUP)

April 20, 2018

@blackbombaim @loverslollypops @ardaaudio #reverbations #room #concrete #sound #jonathansaldanha #live #recording #album #music #Porto #feup #laboratory #acustics (at FEUP)

April 20, 2018

#blackbombaim #luisfernandes #rec #live (at Avenida Dos Aliados)

February 26, 2018

#blackbombaim #luisfernandes #live #recording (at Avenida Dos Aliados)

February 26, 2018

#blackbombaim #recordingstudio #live #record #records #recorded #rec (at Avenida Dos Aliados)

February 25, 2018

Today, is just another date to forget.

Today I remember that clear moment, past and true, when the story took a decisive and enlightening stroke of awareness and energy towards a glorious reflection. I saw nothing but the wrongful choices of a possible and brighter future and therefore I acted accordingly.

That direction, the one established to my greatest ambition, could not be proven in that observed path of self and acknowledgeable destruction. Eternity must be achievable while I am alive and can enjoy the glory of life, learning how to die.

I still have to endure this times of final change, this times when a mature and improved self is ready to take part of the grand take.

I am writing a story with the thinnest and lightest calligraphy health can provide. I am what I eat, what I drink and what I can achieve physically, through and into myself.

Today is the day I remember my future.

June 8, 2017

Motivation comes in the form, of the most peculiar terms and conditions.

If i am forced to do something, I usually react accordingly to my condition of autonomous and responsible individual and in the precise terms I can foresee to be valuable and interesting to me. Like so I gather a stronger cause and effect connection with the result.

Life itself forced me to become better. My actions and choices are now insourced to make a better version, the last version, of myself. I feel it, I see it and I am making the initial concept of improvement even better.

There’s no choice but to be able to continue. Not only for me but specially for the ones around.

May 2, 2017

Great way to check if the project is coming to the desired goal… Pushing harder and harder to see the new limits!
Done, and guess what?…

Technically evolved, aware, conscious and detailed. Committed to the bare minimum of excellence. Nothing more, nothing less.

Physically capable. Not yet a remarkable human or even a grand example of strength and achievement but I am now above normal. I am able to sustain such an affirmative cause by relying on the focus in am thrusting day by day, by being the traction of others while conducting my own path, by my own merit and formation I have now and is enough for me to spare. I am starting to influence so much more than myself.

Finally I can only assume I am what I want, by will and will alone, naturally becoming a better human by choice and assuming the new modus operandi as my healthy way of living life learning how to die.

February 20, 2017

Breathe
Calm
Activity
Experience(s)
Gratitude
Sleep
Kindness

December 22, 2016

Load
Sad
Anxious
People
Alcohol
Media
They

December 22, 2016

Awareness of being aware is not enough to become a simple conscience aware man.

The next step to become more is a deeper level of connected centric wisdom made for the aggressive selection of all the former states. From the early stages of gathering, hoarding (and still to this day collecting info), to the later when I am absorbing light trough life itself.

This parsimonious learning is not a cycle anymore but a continuous process of constant evolution.

the MONSTRUKTOR

December 10, 2016

I am here not long enough to have fun.

the MONSTRUKTOR

November 21, 2016

When you find your focus and purpose you don’t fail anymore, you’re either winning or learning.

the MONSTRUKTOR

November 16, 2016

The step.

The steeper step. The next and bigger step. Irrefutably the step where I can’t turn my back on my life. What’s left of it is made (real) by the concrete moments made by the truth I am. The recent ones are made of successive discoveries, evolutions, enhancements and other subtypes of the desired me.

This is about me, my goals and achievements. I want to run, swim, ride, race, travel while being aware, kind, friendly, arrogantly insightful and intelligent, resourceful, present, notable, odd…This is also about the ones around and their shared composite intimate construction. I want them to want me. Simple.

I am what I am for what exists around me is only the truth.

November 8, 2016

A morte não é difícil, é por isso a grande solução para todos os homens.

the MONSTRUKTOR

October 8, 2016

A morte não é difícil, é por isso a grande solução para todos os homens.

the MONSTRUKTOR

October 8, 2016

Only a simple and amazing man can live after his death.

the MONSTRUKTOR

May 5, 2016

Doing right must take less effort than doing wrong.

Even though it seems simple and clear as a concept to every one alive, materializing it is the hardest thing I have ever witnessed as a human.

The key is to learn.

the MONSTRUKTOR

April 22, 2016

Recognition is respect and not social awareness. Fame is relative and depends mainly of social networking and availability to cast the expected reactions of others in your life.

I chose to be just a simple man, with a history told by many and remembered by all.

the MONSTRUKTOR

March 30, 2016

No man should ever be forced to live a life where he couldn’t learn.

the MONSTRUKTOR

March 18, 2016

Experience life as if experience is the measure of living.

the MONSTRUKTOR

March 8, 2016

When renovation proclaims eternity by looking at simplicity through death.

the MONSTRUKTOR

October 5, 2015

I need a reason to love me, I need a reason to be a man.

the MONSTRUKTOR

April 5, 2015

Cried,
watching myself,
alone,
without a conductor or master,
without a choir of applause in the recognition of,
while alive,
being awake inside of me.

Fought,
relentlessly fought,
discovered by none and appraised by all,
every single none,
who took time to listen,
to meet,
me.

Cried,
I still do,
but I made it a choir,
of everything I fought to be me,
and give to you.

All.

the MONSTRUKTOR

February 17, 2015

There are infinite ways to see the world but only one matters.

the MONSTRUKTOR

February 7, 2015

A bloody nose usually means you’ve been in a fight, unusually that fight was with your inside.

the MONSTRUKTOR

January 30, 2015

Die in the war or live with the memories.

the MONSTRUKTOR

January 14, 2015