Growth

It never was anxiety, it was, unquestionably, restlessness.

I have faced death, loss, violence, sadness, despair, drama and obsoletion.

Looking back, I can identify a common definition of anxiety but, giving it a second look, I can now see and translate those events in a deeper view of the moment: I never stopped.

Never got stranded, ever got immobilised in more than a fraction, a protective synapse, and this changes everything! It’s not anxiety. Anxiety incapacitates, and I never felt stronger than during the event (obviously sensing the adrenal/hormonal decay immediately after) but I always fell into a mature acknowledgement of my own personal strengths and weaknesses.

I’m not an alien, I just have built the tools to look at things in spacetime differently.

March 2, 2021

Notabilidade @ noção de ser quem sou, sem margem para dúvida, na abordagem que divide o mundo entre os que pertencem à raça por analogia e os que são indivisíveis pela sua singularidade.

March 27, 2018

Notabilidade @ noção de ser quem sou, sem margem para dúvida, na abordagem que divide o mundo entre os que pertencem à raça por analogia e os que são indivisíveis pela sua singularidade.

March 27, 2018

Envisioning planning without fallacies or segmented people, only tasks. Achieving the end goal by exact measure and proportional understanding of the given context. I am a predictionist?

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March 13, 2018

Tyrant, as only a docile monster can be. A gentle beast, overcoming scale with exponential calm.

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January 12, 2018

Orgulha-te do que tu decidiste ser, o que tu és, e como já são tudo o queres de ti, para ti.

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January 10, 2018

Orgulha-te do que tu decidiste ser, o que tu és, e como já são tudo o queres de ti, para ti.

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January 10, 2018

The decisive moment when the maestro, the performer, the band, the act, the discipline, the legacy and the audience are a solo for the first time.

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December 2, 2017

Growth happens at the proportional pace of enlightenment, while self inflation is a measure of influence of the surroundings. This is best when related to the ability to be at peace with my own worth. And I’m worth a lot. She is bigger and already imposing, at the comfortable distance, her affection of power and dominant position… I wonder when she will see it as clearly as I have since the moment I smelled her.

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September 13, 2017

Stay within the routine. Run, ride, row.

The last week has been a strong indicator of growth and endurance, seeing the body and the mind adapting each other to the new uses.

Piling distance as never before I see some injuries appear. With the help of new materials they should be overcome easily.

Ice is a new friend. Distance is new focus. Personal achievement is the new order.

October 21, 2016

Unable to stop being true, strongly committed with sincerity, helpful and always effective in a way I only hurt myself and that by the ones I give so much.

Until now, when I see and believe that not only truth is relative but its importance is also context/individual dependable. I am now seeing more from inside to outside than the opposite. That paradigm changes the growth direction and rhythm exponentially.

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October 13, 2016

Help yourself helping those who can’t help themselves.

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June 21, 2015

The relations of humans derive mostly from the dynamics of men and women, even from the womb this presents itself as a prelude of a master.

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April 3, 2015

I want to write a story of ambition, growth and success.

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March 26, 2015