Aware

August 3, 2020

Choose : a full stop or a different way forward.

Either way, it depends on each and every one of us to select upon conscience the practice to adopt as a tool to merely see.

Optimistic, yes, naive, sometimes, aware, as much as possible, dominant, always.

March 18, 2020

Estou farto de tentar… Não consigo salvar toda a gente. Tenho que me salvar a mim também. Talvez assim consiga salvar mais alguém.

March 11, 2020

I have predestined myself to empower other people. I can see how their eyes cannot lie on how much my self realisation is an aware statement of a mature conductor in front of an audience.

September 13, 2019

Buy less

Value everything

Absorb all the nutrients

Be positive

Change the provenance

More plants

Stranded by beauty.

June 30, 2019

Defining what I am and how i thrive, not what I do or who I know.

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March 5, 2019

É nas camadas do tempo que melhor me situo; é onde a infinitesimal pobreza de ser nascido de dentro de mim e não só de alguém, me faz início e fim em mim. Por arquivo não me incluo na nostalgia do que pude ter sido, por fantasia também não e nunca tenho remorso que não do que está para vir. Esse modo de olhar por entre, direto, tangente, rasante, inquieto, insaciável, é o meu declínio e queda; é a minha âncora inter dimensional, onde nem o presente me inclui por certo e o futuro ainda me exclui de dentro.

. MONSTRUKTOR

February 19, 2019

Quero morrer da lucidez, quando viver da falta dela.

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January 29, 2019

Acordar a doer é a prática de quem merece. Simplesmente acordar é em teoria o que todos atingem. Sem acordar não passamos de espectros. Acordar e sentir esse estado de ser, humano, ou não, depende da vontade de não doer.

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December 5, 2018

Acordar a doer é a prática de quem merece. Simplesmente acordar é em teoria o que todos atingem. Sem acordar não passamos de espectros. Acordar e sentir esse estado de ser, humano, ou não, depende da vontade de não doer.

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December 5, 2018

(un) Attainable, or the ability I developed to (indirectly) create a trench between the significance of my path and the knowledge others believe they have in comparison with my competence. In this battleground, time sequences itself in the order of the surrounding mistakes I can now predict, with even more distance; space is in each time more narrower, rounding the indulgences of ignorance and false truth. Only a new man can foresee new visions of his future self while an old and tired being can only know what life made of/for him. I’m regressing to the future of my late history, telling the stories still unwritten and in that process assuming my arrogance as the humble way to live life learning how to die.

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July 18, 2018

How lonely it must be, as such an intelligent person, still incomprehensible, while surrounded by people who can’t understand me.

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July 17, 2018

I see without sight and hear from the reverbations that I make of life. I feel the amplified resonance of silence from every pore of my mind. I devour what to do best, better, bestowing only my own demise, in the way I digest the dimensions of being alive. A complete man, a serious accident of incomensurable value, registering the future of my own story. This is how I came to explain myself the limitations of being a vision of intuition.

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May 4, 2018

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March 11, 2018

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March 11, 2018

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March 11, 2018

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March 11, 2018

Descompassado, desde que nasci. Seja por futuro, mas também pelo presente que nunca o é. Nada se alinha porque nada tem que se alinhar além do alinho que procuro de mim com o mundo. Pontos de uma vista particular, singular.

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February 19, 2018

I live in the inescapable loop of curiosity and self wonderment. My thirst for knowledge is easily surpassed by my gift of indexation and by the competent habilitation to construct a myriad of stories around me. All are true, and made of a systematic approach into a critical creative content. I develop not only the selected content but mainly the people who I choose and prove themselves ready for this opportunity to learn how to become eccentric parts of this ceremonial profession.

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February 7, 2018

Já nem a tristeza me chega; já nem a mágoa de sentir os pulmões encher continuamente, em compasso com a batida normal. Calmo, mas sem visão. Sem mais força do que a que preciso para manter a noção de ser quem sou: totalmente livre de ser menos – por muito que me queiram dizer que não. Indiferente, mas convicto, nessa razão de ver, por ser só assim, afinal quem eu sou.

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February 4, 2018

Já nem a tristeza me chega; já nem a mágoa de sentir os pulmões encher continuamente, em compasso com a batida normal. Calmo, mas sem visão. Sem mais força do que a que preciso para manter a noção de ser quem sou: totalmente livre de ser menos – por muito que me queiram dizer que não. Indiferente, mas convicto, nessa razão de ver, por ser só assim, afinal quem eu sou.

the MONSTRUKTOR

February 4, 2018

Ainda não fiz o suficiente para mim, por mim; através de quem sigo as vontades da humildade, humilhada na base que entorpece pela falta de alma; gosto de ser mais do que só o homem que vê, miro e deixo ver, mostro; sodomia, estupro, inegável vítima da minha própria força; preso pelo pouco dos outros, pelo ócio que me condeno.

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January 20, 2018

Ainda não fiz o suficiente para mim, por mim; através de quem sigo as vontades da humildade, humilhada na base que entorpece pela falta de alma; gosto de ser mais do que só o homem que vê, miro e deixo ver, mostro; sodomia, estupro, inegável vítima da minha própria força; preso pelo pouco dos outros, pelo ócio que me condeno.

the MONSTRUKTOR

January 20, 2018

I’m not afraid of my own death, I fear living unaware of death.

the MONSTRUKTOR

January 3, 2018

The frailty of being aware is obviously the lack of egotistical self centered manners.

September 14, 2017

Growth happens at the proportional pace of enlightenment, while self inflation is a measure of influence of the surroundings. This is best when related to the ability to be at peace with my own worth. And I’m worth a lot. She is bigger and already imposing, at the comfortable distance, her affection of power and dominant position… I wonder when she will see it as clearly as I have since the moment I smelled her.

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September 13, 2017

It’s hard see pure talent. For me is easier to recognize in others, and enhance it to the way the balance of their own sight is no longer a self commiseration of doubt but a certainty of truth.

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September 5, 2017

The simplicity of a human being can only be measured by the ability to stare at himself.

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August 27, 2017

Legs. Stronger than ever and happy to submit to pain.

Acknowledging the weakest points of the weakest points is a new focus of macro importance. Being able to cope with the constant evolution and all the recent achievements means I have to search deeper into the reasons why I can or cannot be better, need to or not do at all.

This nano mitochondrial approach brings the perfect context for self knowledge and body and mind awareness in order to make the experience greater and more successful. More importantly, it makes the experience uniquely adequate and personal.

The more I know the more I want to be more. About myself.

I hope recovery is on par with performance.

July 20, 2017

Raise myself above all layers of specificity is the path to be more specific about what I want to do.

Jack of all trades, master of me.

the MONSTRUKTOR

June 28, 2017

Difícil não é perder mas perceber que o tal perder podia ter sido evitado.

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March 15, 2017

Difícil não é perder mas perceber que o tal perder podia ter sido evitado.

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March 15, 2017

The resemblance with a smile is a pure coincidence as life continues to follow the path of least resistance and focus on all the others around me.

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January 17, 2017

Perfecting.

Technical evolution is more important than instant achievement.

Body awareness achievable by motion, cadence, rhythm and peace. Step by step, overcoming the shadows of a lot not made, makes me ready and near the first act.

Oh what a journey, what a joy is to be aware of so much when you compare just three months earlier in my life.

December 15, 2016

This new stint.

Made of… another five days of glorious physical and mental evolution. This is all good but, for the bar to raise and gradually get higher, I need to enhance the greatest ability of them all in training (and dedication) towards a goal: coherence.

Today (and maybe for the next four to ten days) the achievement is to achieve nothing bigger, longer, stronger or even different. It’s simply to become coherent. Intricately get to know myself, deeper, better, factually and concretely hoarding the simplicity of the goal in the complexity of the mind and body.

Cravings are gone.
Rest is rest. Good rest.
Routines are for now sane and manageable. Keep aware of the darker me regarding routines…

Here I go.

September 12, 2016

I should be a mere nothing. The world would notice it’s pace skipping from within.

the MONSTRUKTOR

July 15, 2016

The insolence of faith,
self rite,
written to the voyage,
to the obsolescence of the physical world,
present in front of such grandeur.

The sagacity of the search for my own result.

The doubt,
the first step,
the next step,
the infinite forward loop,
the cycle,
the momentum accelerating my energy out of my soul.

Into the matter of nothing visible.

the MONSTRUKTOR

May 29, 2016

Only a simple man needs to care more about what he’s doing than what I’m being paid to do.

the MONSTRUKTOR

May 4, 2016

Only a simple man knows the difference between importance, relevance and priority resides in self commitment to ominous awareness.

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May 3, 2016

Older, darker, aware. Without enemies but with a legion of silent allies.

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March 26, 2016

Wrecked, shredded, broken and slightly aware of the destruction. Everything is going to have a moment to decline the end. Anything, to retake the things that are not available. I can resume another cycle of destruction asap.

the MONSTRUKTOR

March 1, 2016

Estou pronto para tudo, só preciso do meu corpo, presente e capaz e mesmo até esse momento, em que nada mais sou eu, eu sei o que procuro.

the MONSTRUKTOR

February 6, 2016

Estou pronto para tudo, só preciso do meu corpo, presente e capaz e mesmo até esse momento, em que nada mais sou eu, eu sei o que procuro.

the MONSTRUKTOR

February 6, 2016

I’m starting to unconsume consumerism at the proportional rate of the conscious possession of my wiser surrounding.

the MONSTRUKTOR

January 27, 2016

When you are the sum of your skills you can become a precious tool.

When you critic your skills constructively you are a creative.

When you interpret your skills enough to flourish your mind with questions you are a skilled crafter.

When you do nothing and reality changes, I am the master.

the MONSTRUKTOR

September 20, 2015