The will to explode is only a matter of personal time.
Rather soon or maybe at a later stage of your life it is bounded to happen. Silently or in incessant torrents of sound. It will happen.
Either way you are destined to explode in a cloud of ash that resembles only the primal element of us all. We are all doomed to become what is intended for our brief existence, and in the most science figured way imaginable, you are always and will be always carbon.
Some of us try to retain that though briefly while embracing some types of deafening theological arms of anthropological nature of men, but still they remain ubiquitously connected to some kind of end.
Others try to surpass that very own limit by embracing eternal reasoning and or unreasoning of the body. This too is unsuccessful and costs expensive amounts of time shortening, from several aspects of a mundane life.
How can I accept this and peacefully became carbon when expected? How can you?
I’m urging the strict and consuming way of living life, becoming bounded to the elemental units of existence, to my own will.
How? Can you ask…?
Depending only on my senses, to be who I am, and disabling the filter society as given to me by education. It’s not an anarchical point of view or even a disrespectful one. It’s merely a simple point, singular in time and space in wich, a man can understand the majority of things by simply thinking about them. I’m not a genius or even a strongly educated academic, I’m just a simple man with simple thoughts on what life brings in front of me or by context I’m persuaded to learn.
This makes and is the real difference. Learning. Again, not in an academic way of hoarding content and collecting corpses of truth but in a light, elementary indexed vision of everything.
I’m used to say to some friends and colleagues I’m a jack of all trades and a master of none but this isn’t completely the truth. Idiosyncrasies apart I am a master of me, and believe it, it’s a lot of work. I am a master of vision, reasoning and pragmatic logical though, but also an infantile, brutal, egomaniac, inspired and determined man. I am what I choose to be. Everyday. With everyone. And I respect others in their path. But I think little about some.
This is how I am a gathered ensemble of carbon, and embrace it, while being alive. I know my elements, not all, but getting a good part of them polished in a regular bases, and I use them in my advantage. I got to know more of me only to know more of you and everything surrounding us. Simple, ah…?
It’s not my intention to become a spiritual kind of anything wandering on some place idilic. I work everyday in a life of meaning and understanding, to me and to others around me.
This is my greatest endeavor and will always be. Become elementary connected to me and to others in an umbilical way of living life learning how to die, ups…. Becoming carbon.
the MONSTRUKTOR